Standing at the crossroads...

Before I start my daily rambling, here's to Holly and how amazing it is to really experience her triumphs and challenges during her Ironman training! I'm so lucky to be able to hear the stories through our blog. She's one in a million in the fact that she's not going to let anything stand in her way, not even diabetes! Holly - I know you know how big of a challenge it is to merely train for the Ironman but you've really proven to yourself and others that the sky is the limit. Keep up the focus and effort and keep feeding the athlete - the athlete is hungry and the monster (ah, like the scary monsters that used to live under my bed when I was little) is full and has a stomach ache!

The crossroads - yesterday afternoon I felt like I stood at the crossroads of my life, just reflecting on where I've been, where I am, and where I'm going. If you can't tell, I kinda want my future to play out in front of me before it actually happens. I used to have this crazy sense of adventure and freedom and would reach for the unknown with hands wide open and over the past two years I've fluttered between "tell me now" and "I know everything will figure itself out, it's just a matter of time". I felt the crossroads yesterday because I had a great day with the two little boys I took care of yesterday! I loved nannying three years ago and I fell right back into that feeling of taking care of little kids so easily yesterday. They were adorable and we had a great time going on bike rides, picking up leaves at the park, and munching off their 10+ fruits and veggies in their garden. So that's one fork on the crossroads. The other - 3 math support specialist jobs just opened up at one of the more vibrant and more diverse middle schools in Seattle and after thinking I would just nanny and substitute teach, I applied to all 3 positions. I find myself totally confused about which route is going to be best for me and hope to find some calm in knowing things will work out the way they are supposed to be. Do I nanny, substitute teach, and think towards having kids when I feel great about my diabetes control and relatively stress-free? If given the opportunity, do I launch myself back into the sometimes crazy world of teaching and see if I can still manage my diabetes as well so that when we are ready to have kids, it will be an option? I guess I'll just have to wait and see...

Oh diabetes, sometimes you make me stronger and sometimes you complicate my life in ways I wish were less complicated!

As Dr. Matt said many times at camp - "I think it's amazing what each and every one of you does on a daily basis!" IT IS AMAZING - UNBELIEVABLY AMAZING! Keep it up!